Hari umuvandimwe uherutse kungezaho igitekerezo cya Magayane, akigereranya n;ubuhamya bwa Maman Domitilla, nsanga ari ngombwa ko nabigeza kubasomyi ba DHR; Yatangiye agira ati:"muribuka ko Magayane;umugabo wavukiye muri préfecture ya Ruhengeri;yavuze byinshyi ku mahano azabera mu Rwanda, ntibyatinze byose byarabaye, twese tubibona,kandi abenshi barabisuzuguraga ngo ntashyingiro bifite. Mu byo yavuze ,akaza no kubizira, akabifungirwa muri Prison spéciale ya Ruhengeri, twafatamo ibyingenzi bikurikira:

Â Maman Domitilla: Maman Domitilla nawe, ukomoka i Murenge ho muri Zaire mu buhamya bwe, akimara gupfa akajyanwa mu ijuru, akaza kuzuka, akagaruka nyuma y,iminsi 4, yazanye ubutumwa bugaragara, kandi bwo kwitonderwa. Mu gice cya nyuma mu buhamya bwe aragira ati:

BASOMYI MWESE DUHURIYE KULI IZI MBUGA: NIFUJE KUBAGEZAHO IBYO NZI KU BUHANUZI BWA MAGAYANE, NKABA NSABA INKUNGA BAGENZI BANJYE AHO BARI HOSE KUNYUNGANIRA KUKO MULI AMOSI 3:7 IMANA YARAVUZE NGO: NTA KIZABA NTABANJE KUGIHISHULIRA ABAHANUZI.

MAGAYANE YARI UMUGABO UFITE IMPANO Y' UBUHANUZI, AKABA YARAKOMOKAGA MU KARERE BITAGA UBUKONYA, KOMINI YA GATONDE, MU RUHENGERI. MBERE YUKO MVUGA IBYO YAHANURIYE ABANDI, DORE IBYO YIHANURIYE UBWE:

Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Perefe Zigiranyirazo muramu wa Habyarimana akimara kwumva ko nta kabuza abatutsi bari hanze bazafata urwanda, nyuma ariko ngo bakazarwirukanwamo n' umuzungu warubahaye, Zigiranyirazo yatse insinzi, Magayane ati kereka Habyarimana yeguye igihugu akagiha abanyenduga kuko nibo bazi amacenga y' abatutsi, bityo mwebwe mukicara. Zigiranyirazo yavuze ko bafunga Magayane, Magayane akigera mu buroko 1930 yabwiye uwamutekeraga ati: ku wa kane nzapfa maze kurya imboga. Niko byagenze. kuko yahaweÂ i mboga z' isogoÂ yakundaga jeudi yitaba imana. Yanabwiye n' uwo musoda wamutekeraga ko azagwa mu maguru y' abagore, niko byabaye uwo musore yagiye gusambanya umugore w' undi mugabo, ategerwa kw' irembo bamutsinda aho.Â

Ibyo yahanuriye abandi ni ibi: yabwiye ambasaderi Kagenza Alphonse muli nzeli 1972 ko Kayibanda uzengurutse urwanda rwose ngo aribuka isabukuru y' imyaka 10Â y'ubwigenge ko ariho asezera ku banyarwanda ko nta myaka itatu azamara ategeka, ko nategura n' imva ye itazaboneka.

Yabwiye Kanyarengwe alexis ko azahunga akambuka Akagera, akagaruka arwana, akazitwa umutegetsi wa nyirarureshywa, akabona ibibi n' ibyiza, nyuma agapfa adahinnwe azize indara-mabuno.

Yavuze ko hari abazungu bagiye gufungirwa mu Ruhengeri, abandi b' abatasi bazabakurikira bakagwa kuli Muhungwe byarabaye, abacanshuro bashatse gufata Congo banyuze i Goma en 1978 surete ya Lizinde yari ikaze ibata muli yombi bafatirwa mu mahoteli ku Gisenyi, bafungiwe mu Ruhengeri, nyuma yaho abandi bakoreye plan yo gufata Rwanda na Congo byombi muli parc y' i birunga i Rwindi (congo),baje mu Rwanda n' ibyuma kabuhariwe bifotora, indege ibagusha muli komini Kanama(bugoyi- gisenyi) hafi ya Muhungwe.

Â Magayane yahamagariwe gukora animation bamamaza, banacengeza amatwara ya muvoma, ati: uwabyiniye Nkubitoyimanzi Rudahigwa, na bwenge nyakuli Kayibanda, ntiyabyinira muvoma izanywe n' abungura bazubika u Rwanda.

Bourgmestre Kabalira yahise amufungira mu kasho amuziza gupfobya MRND,Â akanatuka prezida wayo ngo ni umwungura w' umushyushya. Nyuma y' icyumweru baramurekuye, Magayane abwira Kabalira ati: kumfungira ubusa kwawe nawe uzafungirwa ahatava izuba. Bwarakeye basanga Kabalira yarariye imisanzu ya MRND, yafungiwe muli prison special mu ruhengeri.

Â Magayane yabwiye Theoneste Lizinde ati: ugiye kuzafunganwa n' abantu bambaye utubuye tubengerana ku ntugu, mukazashyirwa aho wajyaga ufungira abandi. Bwarakeye Lizinde avumbura imashini yakoraga amafranga, iyo mashini yari ihuriweho na Majyambere n' ibindi bikomerezwa. Lizinde abigejeje i bukuru, bati uyu muntu azabwira abanyamahanga akari i murore bati: tumwohereze Zimbabwe, navayo tuti yateguraga coup d' etat, ahite afungwa.

Yabwiye Lizinde ati ikimenyetso cy' ifungwa ryawe n' umwana uzabyarwa na madame Habyarimana ari ikimara. Byarabaye uwo mwana avukira mu bubiligi ari ikimara (baramuhishaga) nta cyumweru cyahise Lizinde atabwa muli yombi. Magayane ati Lizinde nufungurwa n' ingabo zizaturuka hanze, uzicarana nazo akanya gato, uzahunga, zizagutsinda hanze.

Â Magayane yabwiye adjudant chef wayoboraga gereza ya Ruhengiri witwaga Sembagare ati: uri igikenya ntuzisazira. Bwarakeye ajya iwabo i muramba-gisenyi, inkuba itagira amazi iramwasa.

Magayane yabwiye undi muyobozi w' iyo gereza adjudat Cyarahani ati:uzicirwa muli iyi prison, umwaga wawe uzashirira aha.

Yabwiye abanyururu bagenzi be ati: iyi myenda mubona y' umukara twambaye izasimbuzwa ibara ribengerana( rose) yarongeye ati: ibohozwa ry' iyi prison rizabanziriwa no kumwa kw' iki giti cy' inganzamarumbu mubona imbere ya gereza, ati hano munzu ndani hazinjira ihene izaherekeza abashyitsi. Bwarakeye igiti kiriyumisha, naho ubwo musenyeri Nsengiyumva yasuraga gereza ya Ruhengeri,bibagiwe gukinga ihene irabinjirana, nijoro bumva iramena amasafuriya irya ubugali

Magayane ati : ngicyo ikimenyetso mwatashye, mais abazahungira Rwabeya muzashira. Abahungiye Rwabeya-musanze bahuye n' abacodo ba Mukamira baje kubohoza Ruhengeri, babamenaho urusoro babita inyenzi

Kubera atahwemye kwikoma ingoma ya kinani, byateye ubwobo abayobozi ba gereza ya Ruhengeri, bahitamo kumushyikiriza ibiro by' ipererza ngo yisobanure. Yasabye ko Habyara n' ibyegera bye baza, maze ubuhanuzi bufatwa kuli za cassettes buranandikwa. dore uko yavuze:
Â Wowe Habyarimana ndagukandagiye ugiye kugwa ku kibuga gikikijwe n' imfunzo kandi Â nupfa Kigali izuzuramo intumbi agahiryi. Ibimenyetso n' abazungu bazaza kugukanga nawe uzashyira mu bitugu byawe mu bushorishori umugore w'umugambanyi, Inyamaswa y' ihembe limwe izaba ibiyogoza mu rukiga na ndorwa, iyo nyamaswa izakwira urwanda imena amaraso menshi, izaguhitana nta kabuza, keretse weguye.

Â Habyara ati shaka insinzi: Magayane ati ntayo, ati ubutegetsi bwawe buzafatwa nabo bavantara, bazigera kino gihugu, nyuma bazakivanwamo nk' ubufindo. Magayane ati: uzasimburwa na Rusukumo ruzamara amezi atatu, hakurikireho Bihwahwa wo ku ruzi rw' iwanyu, nyuma ye ngo hazategeka Rwabujindiri rurya ntiruhage; uwo Rwabujindiri azajegezwa ihembe inshuro enye, Â ihirikwa rya Rwabujindiri rizagenda ritya:

Magayane ati: azaraswa umwambi w' igishirira na bene-nyinaÂ ari mu Bugesera nyumaÂ hazameneka andi maraso menshi, noneho rutuku wamuhaye ubutegetsi ashyireho umusaza usheshe akanguhe uzaba ari inyuma y' igihugu azane ihumure, acyure rukara rw' igisage ruzabyinirwa bigatinda.

Abantu bazaba baragiye ishyanga bose batahuke, habeho umunezero n' uburumbuke n' amahoro ya nyayo.

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Uko bizamera ingoma ya Rwabujindiri igezeÂ mu marembera: hazabaho isubiranamo ry' abiyicaje ku ntebe. Hazabaho inzara, agahili n' agahinda, no kwiyahura. Hazabaho urwikekwe yewe n' umwana azatinya se na nyinaÂ ; hazabaho amalira yuzuye intango ku bali mu bihome hazabaho ibisahira-nda birya akaribwa n' akataribwa, bazakora ibishoboka byose ngo batsinsure rwara rw' umugara rubundiye mu mashyamba, nyamara nabyutsa umugara igihuru kizabyara igihunyira. Bazafatanya n' anyamahanga, nyuma bibe zero, ahubwo intambara yongere itangire ikazahagarikwa na l' onu ya gatatu.

Magayane ati uwo rutuku uzaza agahagarara hagati y'abazaba barwana, niwe uzatoranyaÂ umutegetsi.

Hazabaho inyoni z' uducurama zizarika mu biti by'abo biyicaje ku ntebe. Hazabaho ibika ry' isake isura urwimo ikigera ku mutambiko w' urusenge, hazabaho abandi bazahanura nkanjye bakabizira: hazabaho ihene izabyara isekurume indwi zange konka.

Mwibuke ko Magayane yavuze ati: nimubona Kigali yuzuye amase atewe n' imyigaragambyo y' inka. muzamenye ko kinani yahirimye, kuko amase azasimbuzwa intumbi z' abantu. byarabaye mu kwa gatatu 1993, umugabo watswe igikingi yazanye inka ze kuli rond-point Kigali. Inka zacunzwe n' aba GdÂ umugi wabaye umunuko kubera amase. Nyuma intumbi zasimbuye amase.

Â Ikindi gikomeye yaravuze ati: Habyarimana nupfa, abantu bazahunga iki gihugu, ati aliko abazahungira mu majyaruguru y' uburengera-zuba bazapfamo benshi. koko abahungiye Goma, Mugunga, Kibumba, Katale, Kahindo basanze docteur ru....umututsi ukomoka ku kibuye uba mu bihugu byo hanze yakwije amarozi muli nord kivu, bayasigaga ku gisheke, irindazi, umuneke, ikijumba,ikigeli, bashyize no mu bigage, inzagwa,n' amasigara, imbaga yarahatikiye ngo ni koleraÂ daaa!

Â Magayane yabisubiyemo inshuro eshatu ati: aba bavantara baturutse i bugande bazafata kino gihugu nta kabuza, ati aliko bararye bali menge kuko bazakibavanamo kandi nabi. Ababizi bemeza ko abo mu kazu ka fpr imitungo yabo yambukijwe kera ikaba ili muli erythrea, ethiopie, afrika y' epfo, i burayi na amerika. mbese barasahura nkaho nta mizero bafitiyeÂ u rwanda.Â

Ubu buhanuzi mbukesha umwe mu bakozi b' ibiro by' iperereza bo hambere en 1978 wandikiraga kinani ibivuzwe na Magayane. Ukunyunganira kwanyu bizanshimisha.

Indi ndagu: http://ikazeiwacu.fr/2014/10/14/ubuhanuzi-ku-bihugu-rwanda-burundi-uganda-congo-na-tanzania/

Hell - Loop Overdose

You can map the stages: initial stumble, embarrassed self-scrutiny, compulsive rehearsal. Naming it helpsâ€”rumination, obsession, intrusive thoughtâ€”yet names are only scaffolding. The loop is an architecture of attention, a house built of recollection and prediction, in which occupants are both witness and victim. Time collapses there; minutes smear into each other like rain down a window. The present becomes thin, an origami surface folded over the same sentence until its crease defines all else.

Clinically, interventions matter. Therapy offers language and technique; medication can rebalance storms of affect; community provides ballast. These are not moral remedies but practical tools. The goal is not to erase repetitionâ€”repetition is how we learnâ€”but to restore proportionality so that attention can be spread among the plurality of living: work, love, rest, play, and the small ineffable things that dialogue with being. hell loop overdose

The hell loop began small, a single track replaying inside the skull like a scratched vinyl record. It was a phrase, an image, a failureâ€”something trivial and perfect in its ability to reconfigure experience into a tunnel. At first it was a nuisance: a distracted sigh during breakfast, a missed call, the hollow recognition that the mind had rerouted itself into a cylindrical habit. Then, with a patient hunger, it carved grooves deeper than habitâ€”grooves that captured daylight and memory and angrier, softer versions of himself. You can map the stages: initial stumble, embarrassed

Philosophically, the hell loop invites questions about narrative identity. Who are we when our life is a rehearsal? The shrine of the loop promises mastery through repetition but offers only ossification. Authenticity dissolves into technique. If character is the tendency to respond, the loop warps it into a tendency to reprocess. Liberation, if not transcendence, is reintroducing contingency: accepting that incomplete actions do not doom us, that ambiguity is tolerable, that regret need not be a directive. The capacity to be surprised by oneâ€™s own lifeâ€”rare, and perhaps the deepest healingâ€”is the antidote. Surprise reopens the loop by presenting events that resist rehearsal. Time collapses there; minutes smear into each other

Culturally, the hell loop resonates with our information age. We scaffold lives with devices designed to return our attention in loopsâ€”notifications pinging like metronomes, feeds calibrated to prolong gaze. The loopâ€™s content morphs: social slights, career anxieties, political outrage, or the dazzling small humiliations of online life. Each is a candidate for repetition, an urn of embers that will be stroked into fire. There is nothing novel in obsession; what is new is the scale. The hell loop now has an architecture crafted by algorithms, images that replicate and mutate across millions of minds. The overdose, then, is often communalâ€”many people experiencing similar, synchronized loopsâ€”yet each feels singularly cursed.

There is a peculiar violence in the hell loop overdose, not of bodies but of mind. Overdose suggests surplusâ€”too much of a good thing, or too much of any thing. The loopâ€™s sustenance is attention, and attention is finite. When it floods, other faculties drown: appetite, affection, work, the quiet capacity for serendipity. Relationships suffer first in small betrayals: eyes that glaze at dinner, fingers that fake interest, explanations repeated with the fragile hope that this time will land. The loop monopolizes narrative, making life a single sentence that must be corrected, polished, rerun. The world outside continues, indifferent; inside, the loop edits like a tyrant, convinced that perfection is imminent if only it can iterate one more time.