On nights when the city offered little else, he imagined the Helicon sitting on that pawnshop shelf, waiting for someone else to press its buttons and find out what it could do. Sometimes he pictured the world as a mosaic of small fractures and extra qualities — a place where the act of repair always required leaving a space for loss. Sometimes he thought maybe he had been lucky the device had cracked. Maybe it had been the only way the world had taught him to see what, and whom, he could live with altering.
He rationalized. The crack was a cosmetic flaw. The strange losses were coincidence, statistical noise. He kept working.
He considered throwing the pieces away, burying them in a river or consigning them to fire. Instead he wrapped the jagged circuit-board core in cloth and slid it into a shoebox with the last postcard of the theater. Then he took the box to the pawnshop and left it on the counter the way you leave a thank-you note folded over with a half-baked apology. The owner shrugged again and hummed, as if he had seen such things before.